Learn to Swerve.

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I'm still here people.
Just taking a huge detour from the life I originally planned.

http://ruthakers.tumblr.com/

This is the updated link.
I'm still here people.
Just taking a huge detour from the life I originally planned.

http://ruthakers.tumblr.com/

This is the updated link.
I'm still here people.
Just taking a huge detour from the life I originally planned.

If there is anyone who still reads this blog. HAHAHA. RIght. I post on tumblr now. because it's easy. I'm a mess, and the only thing better than blogging about my short comings, is doing it for all the world to see.

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Getting to know me.

In an attempt to up my credentials. I'm offering a 25 things you may not know about Ruth blog. It's the stuff that dateline would see to print if I ever became more than just a desperate housewife, and since you guys take the time to read my meanderings, I want to share it with you. 

Don't say I didn't warn you. 

1. I am addicted to diet coke. I drink no less than 44 ounces in a one day period, and should my body discover that there is less than that coursing through my veins, you will find me convulsing, shaking, and muttering something about needing keys to a car with a full tank. I tell you no lies. 

2. There are 14 bottles of perfume on my dresser, and I make an attempt to spray at least 4 of them on me, 3 times a day. I feel it is only fair to the makers of such perfumes, that I equalize the scents. and not favor one. My current favorite combo is Juciy, true religion, with a spritz of Ed for that fruity flavor men can't stand, but I adore. Good thing I'm not currently in the market for one. ( a man that is).

3. I vacuum my carpet once a day whether it needs it or not. You cannot see my bed due to the current clothes mountain that dwells upon it, but my carpet woud be approved by the surgeon general for sterile operations. I am that girl.

4. I can run 5 miles without thinking twice about it, if my ipod is in full effect. Take away my music, and I couldn't walk fast to a 50% off nordstoms sale. The music makes it possible people.

5. I believe in watching no television, until it comes out on DVD. I see no reason to wait weeks at a time for a show to complete what I need, and keep me hanging, when I can avoid all spoilers for a year or two, head down to my local Target, and purchase it on DVD. I've grown fond of the Office, Veronica Mars, 30 rock, and Prison break. 

6. I despise the heat. I feel it is a tool of the devil. I would much rather wear a coat, and furry boots to keep myself warm, than to try and thwart off the suns rays with nothing more than a fan and some tanning lotion. I am always hot. Not in the sense one of my age would like to be, but rest assured, heat is always radiating from my pores. 

7. I have never TRIED to get pregnant. I am what the mormon people call " A Fertile Myrtle". IF I were to have named my children after the form of birth control I was using when they were concieved, we'd have, Ortho, Depo, Nuva, and "The Patch". 

8. I have no singling abilities WHAT. SO. EVER. When I joined the choir at church at age 11, I was pulled aside and asked if I would mind helping watch kids in the nursery. I knew then that American Idol was a dream I would never achieve. This however does not stop me from belting out Redneck Woman once a month at Karaoke with Courtney, but it does keep me from taking the bag off my head until it's over. 

9. I joined the Air Force when I Was 17 years old, and somehow missed the memo that basic training WASN'T girl scout camp. After being dubbed Airman Paul Mitchell, and being told I lacked discipline and the cajones to finish basic... I buckled down, got serious, and graduated. WITH HONORS. Take that Sgt. Perez. Airman Paul Mitchell. In the house. 

10. I am a natural at writing, but cannot complete a math problem to save my life. During my 2nd year in Algebra I, (no, I didn't come back as a teachers Aide, I failed). My teacher told me to disregard the large poster that said math is critical to your future, and to hope for the best. Actually what she said was, get a tutor, but I like to pretend it went differently. 

11. My life was not fully complete until the introduction of the iPhone, into it. I cannot wear pants without pockets, because reaching into my purse would require more time away from it, than I am willing to give. I love it. It completes me. And with the addition of the fart for free application, I can now say it does IT ALL. 

12. I am Britney Spears' biggest fan. When she shaved her head, I almost offered to send her my hair. I felt they may revoke my BS fan club privlilges if I got too weird, too fast, but I was at the ready if she needed me. I have loved her since the second I saw her on the stage at the mall in 9th grade. I knew then that she would be my girl crush, and that years later, I would be dancing to her music with my very own children. We shared a moment. Ok, so maybe it wasn't mutual, but I like to think sparks flew... 

13. I have no natural talents, but I do this thing we've dubbed "expressive dancing". I can turn any food you enjoy into an art form, that rivals anything you'd see at the Met. If my singing fell through, I planned to fall back onto this to make a living. You'll notice I'm still in the poor house.

14. There are 2 movies in this world that I can quote WORD FOR WORD. Clueless, and dumb and dumber. Both rate a 5 on the intelligence scale, and win me no points with anything that matters, but it's a good day when I find myself being able to answer a question with a line from either of these. " An my buns, they don't feel nuttin' like steel". 

15. My first job was Burger King. They nominated me for Burger King, Burger Queen at the tender age of 16. I could take money and hand out food faster than Paris can spend a Benji, I would have been manager Fer SURE had I not had that nervous breakdown under the table after being accused of scratching my butt and not washing my hands. Um hello. Had I needed to scratch, I would have at least had the decency to do it under the cloak of the large freezer in back!

16. I remember what everyone was wearing the first time we met. I can tell you anything about your clothing choices, with any memory that we have together. It is a sickness. But seriously . Ask me. 

17. I am a speed reader. I inherited this from my mom, and to this day, I can read most books in 2 hours or less. This bodes well for me now more than ever since my days are filled with important things like facebooking, and myspace surveys. Who has time to spend 3 days reading a book? Not me. 

18. I was voted most likely to have 10 kids in 8th grade. Little did I know, I would be halfway there before I could legally rent a car with decent rates.

19. Taco bell is probably the best invention EVER, other than that things that scrapes dead skin off your feet. I can think of no other place that delivers the deliciousness of guacamole, cheese, and mediocre meat products, for less than $2. 

20. I make up nicknames for people, mostly my children, and find myself using them more than their actual names. Mia, to this day does not know her real name is Emma, not Mullet Mia, and Charity is going to be in for a real suprise when nobody calls her Nani at school. I realize I need to work on this. But hey, I still answer to roofball. 

21. My body will not allow me to sleep before midnight. It is physically IMPOSSIBLE. It matters not what time I awake. If I'm out before 2, it's been a long day. You'd think having kids would rid me of this?

22. I have a crush on Channing Tatum that runs deeper than any Indian blood my father swears is hidden inside. I realize this makes me juvenile, and I am so far below what his perfection deserves, but honestly people. HAve you seen this guy??

23. I've been issued 24 speeding tickets since I got my drivers license. I've paid 1. No, I'm not currently wanted for unpaid tickets. I'm just that good at getting out of them. I know. I need to slow down. I figure I have my 30's to drive slow. The time to live is NOW!

24. I think toes are disgusting. Especially naked ones. I refuse to leave my house without a pedicure, or at the very least, a coat of nail polish. I carry one in my purse just in case. You never know who you're going to run into.

25. My bigget weakness is children selling things outside of stores. I find my ability to deny them unavailable, and have the popcorn tins, Girl scout cookie fatrolls, and metal badges to prove it. Sucker. That's me.

Let me go on. LIke I blister in the sun.

Let's beginThe last time our paths crossed, yours truly was mumbling on about summer and how much I hated it. Well. I'm still there. A little less white, but still in absolute abhorance of it's cancer filled rays. hings haven't changed much. Unless you account for my inability to work out, and the size of my gut, but we are not counting that. Those of you who are, proceed quickly to the nearest exit, and don't stop until you see my grotesque figure appearing larger than it actually is in your rear view mirror.

Summer has been filled with the normal things a mother deals with. 

Beating addictions, and by "addictions", I mean small children. 

Finding solace in friends, (Courtney came to visit, and we may have gotten a little out of hand.) I'll disclose no more unless you want to sign, here, here. And Here.

I took the opportunity to attend my high school reunion last week, and after revealing the hatred I currently have for my life's situation to people that I didn't like years, ago, let alone 10 years, and 2 college degrees, and no children later, I attempted to leave the venue we chose for our reunion (1 very steep set of stairs with a yacht club on top, ) and fell all the way to the bottom, bruising not only my shins, chins, and ego, but my reputation as well. 

Apparently, not much has changed. 

I've been in school for about 4 months now, and am still very much dedicated to the cause. OF course by cause, I mean, not failing out as I have a lifetime supply of student loans riding on this, and it's my only way out. I've taken up photography for others in my spare time, doing something with myself besides loathing and self depreciation. 

I got some fun shots of a family I love, and even shot my kids. (tried to anyway, child services stepped in and I was left with just taking their photos). 

Hell even got a little chilly one day when I popped out a scrapbook page. I tell you people. TIMES THEY ARE A CHANGING. 

Lately I've just been trying to hang onto to the stuff I know is true. Which is: dieting is for the birds. And diet coke can't fix everything. But it makes the miserable more easier to deal with.

I met an amazing friend a few months ago who has really been inspiring me to be more than just a lazy bump on a log. I have yet to ACT on the inspiration, but when I do, you will be the first to know. Oh, who am I kidding. I never tell you guys anything. Twitter is where it's at. It's where I'm at. 140 is the new blog. Or something to that effect. Anyways, my girl is so much fun, and so inspiring, did I say that already? Well it's true. She has made the past couple months somewhat bearable, and her make-up skills are the SHITZ. people. Yes. I said it. HEr blog is totally fun, and she keeps me company when the days seem too long, the nights too short.

All in all not much has changed. I'm still the girl with way too much on her plate, and it's usually food. I still have a marathon to run, and I still have goals to attend to. My "book" is coming along about as great as one could expect an ADHD patients book to be. I have chapters 1, 8, and the title page done, the rest is a giant hodgepodge of thoughts and ideas. I have so many, it's just a matter of getting them where they need to be. Kind of like my kids.

Speaking of the little spawns, er- angels, the chloroform appears to be wearing off, and I have laundry to fold, and chores to ignore, not to mention food to consume,  so I'll close. But thanks for the continued readership. All 3 of you. I heart you guys. Big giant cholesterol filled hearts. And I appreciate those who still check on me. 

To those who checked on me while I in the bathroom I apologize, you weren't supposed to see that. 

Come back soon. I'll have lots more stuff to not share with you, and plenty of responsibilities to shirk. 

May the force be with you. 

WE out. 

summer lurvin'

To commemorate the onslaught of summer at the Akers household, I felt a top 8 reasons why I "love"

(*read, abhore ,) this usually cherished by most, 3 months out of the year, was in order. So. Without further adieu, because we hate when adieu runs over, I present. Summer Lurvin'.

1. The weather. There are 2 things in life I was born without, breasts that grow, and a tolerance for heat. I grew up in Alaska, and found solace in it's summers that consisted of 3 weeks of weather topping the charts at 85. and the rest, a sultry 65, give or take a few for cloud coverage and snow downfall. We don't like heat. We live there for a reason. Not the male to female ratio, not the superfluous amounts of oil flowing through our pipelines, not our hot governor who has a front porch view of Russia, no, we live there because we like to be cold. Anyone who says otherwise is there on forced military orders, and will leave as soon as doing so isn't a violation of the UCMJ. Tennessee, is hot. There is no other way to put it. When you wake up and the temperature is higher than your last perfect test score. It's time to consider moving. 

2. The clothes. If there's anything I can attest to being a fan of, it's clothing. I pretty much have an addiction to 3 things. the last one being clothes. I buy them in times of stress, in times of pleasure, in times of pain. (literally, when my pants are so small they squish into the pockets of fat on my gut causing blood blisters of sheer agony, I buy new ones. ) My clothing however has never consisted of 2 items. Shorts, and shirts that reveal my arms. I've found pale white extremities, and a fondness for all things caloric, have left me in a state of continuous pants wearage, not to mention lessening the chance of a stray arm reverberation of skin coming back and giving me a black eye. I believe the term "shake what your mama gave you" should be limited to special occasion snow globes, and gifted  magic 8 balls. Not the case with most people in my vicinity. Apparently the fact I wear jeans on the daily leads people to believe I can either not afford shorts, or that I don't have any. Offering to give me yours, is not only going to increase the chances of ending our friendship, it's going to lead me to believe you find my clothing choices an insinuation that I would sport elastic waist band cargo shorts, and mom jeans. I. Would not.

I keep my legs under wraps for a reason. If I wanted to attract starving vampires,  I'd ask Kristen Stewart for tips. 

3. The end of school. Ah. The joys of having children at home ALL day. It's not that I don't love my children. I do. It's not that I don't appreciate their voices in all different areas of screaming capacity. I do. I just don't know how to do it. 24 hours. A DAY> I don't pretend to be a fan of home-school, let me rephrase, I'm a HUGE fan of home-schooling. Just not one where I am the teacher. I enjoy having a few hours of solitude where I can shave a leg, mop a floor, just to take bets on how long it will take to rival the floor of the local taco bell restroom. I knew when I signed up for motherhood. All 4  times, that I was going to have plenty of bonding time with them. I just didn't realize it was going to consist of so much arguing. And cleaning. and the proverbial screams of problems that really, I don't know, seem like problems.? WE're 4 days in, and I can pretty much see now that when they open the doors for school registration, me and my children are going to be at the front of the line. In fact, I may volunteer to head the operation in hopes of them opening a few days earlier. Yes. That's happening.

4. The vacations. Oh that I were a millionaire and family vacations could consist of a 30 minute jet flight to Disney World, with the nanny who would in turn rub my shoulders as I sipped orange juice and other calming liquids out of a straw. But. THEY DON'T. They consist of 4 things. Car sickness. VOmit. CAr sickness. and lots of ARE WE THERE YET??? We've taken one vacation so far. If 6 hours in a car with 4 kids, 1 DVD player the size of a small paperback book, 2 bouts of "I'm gonna be sick", 1 misread TomTom location, and 7 days of an exhilarating game entitled "cornhole" can be considered a vacation. We travel like the beverly hill billies, only they had nicer transportation. At least the empty wal-mart bags make it appear as if we have coordinating luggage.  We're redneck. To the core. We stop at travel plazas, we pee in empty soda bottles headed down the interstate at 95, and we often find it necessary to break the rule, no shirt no shoes no service. I love a good day away from my life, but vacations, in the sense that most people know them, failed to exist at the expulsion of the 4th child from my fertile uterus. For now. Wal-mart is our only destination. Besides. They have cheaper souvenirs. 

5. The ice cream man. YEah I know. What kind of horrible woman doesn't like the ice cream man. Well let's see, the horrible woman that has 4 children who at one listen of that wretched here we go round the mulberry tree lyrical gathering spouting forth from your 12x12 ice box on wheels, sends my children into a frenzy, seen only in times of sheer joy and elation. Now. I'm all for supporting small business, even small businesess on wheels that could very well be just a cover up for your creepy kid obsession, but $4 for an ice cream bar, is not only ridiculous, it's not even good!~ For what it costs me to get all my children a snack from your ice cream parlor on dubs, I could take us to Outback. Twice. I feel horrible telling them no as you drive by ridiculously slow, beeping your la cockroach horn, and waving, trying to entice them into your ice cream flavored clutches, but until you lower your prices, or begin offering samples. I have to say. No spanks.

6. Swimsuits. Need I even broach this subject? Obviously. I do. It's the bane of my fat covered existence. I distinctly remember trying on swimsuits one year as  a 15 year old high school girl thinking, " I am SO gross." Dear sweet mothers milk, I hadn't seen gross. I hadn't yet watch my body go from a slim 125 pounds to the 205 pound mass that was my grotesquely stretched out frame. I had yet to feed small babies with the glorious bososms that I cursed on a daily basis. My arms had yet to reach full fat gathering potential, with stretch marks from my arm pit to my the fat that used to be my collar bone. My lovely curvy once gymnastic abled thighs had yet to collect wonderful patches of varicose veins that seem to sparkle in the noon day sun. I had no idea then, that swimsuit buying was at it's peak of primal perfection. I've yet to find a swimsuit that alters the entire course of my bodies natural lines, and doesn't give the illusion that I'm stuffing a turkey into an empty chicken shell. It's repulsing. And it's about time swimsuit designers knew how to cater to the population who is willing to swim, yet not willing to risk being mistaken for a beached humpback in the process. I haven't found the lucky swimsuit for this summer. The ones at the local bikini rack breathed a collective sigh of relief when I walked past and didn't reach for any of them. But I'm still on the lookout. I'll get one. And when I do. I'll be sure the sun pays homage in the form of non pasty whiteness. I might even take pictures. 

7. The classic hits of summer. We all know them. We've all sang them. We've all called the radio station and requested them, only to wait for the exact moment they came on, and pushed REC/PLAY at the same time to add it to that mixed tape for the boy you gave your heart to, only to discover he was giving it to 3 other girls at the same time, song. One year it was LFO, I like girls who wear abercrombie and fitch. Then it was Ricky Martin, and his risque tune of living la vida loca, Sean Kingston always manages to come out with one, and if you give her 3 minutes, and a chance to throw something that rhymes together, Hannah Montana could pen us the master mix of summers to come. i love these songs. I listen to them. I no  longer call and request them on the radio, but I do download them to my ipod under the folder, songs I love, but if anyone asks, I've never heard or paid good money for them. I really do enjoy them. I just sometimes wish you could turn on the car radio and not have to hear them in a continuous stream. Oh well. Give it 6 months, and you'll be able to hear those same songs sung by prepubescent teenagers with high pitched voices and lyrical changes that make it fit for grade schoolers everywhere. I suppose that's a plus. 

8. The movies. I love the movies. Really. I do. I'd see them all if they were open to the general public and supplied cages with which to place your children in until which time the movie was over, because the chance of them ruining it with screaming or rapid movements that blocked other people from seeing the movie they paid far too much to see, weren't so high. I've always been a fan of the big screen. HEck, I'm a fan of any screen that allows me to get lost in other peoples adventures for a minute, it does however seem like the incentive of making a summer blockbuster leaves us, the general population stuck with the decision of which movie to waste our hard earned cash on. Every movie preview has Mr. Movie voice promising us something we haven't seen before, and something we can't wait to see. Unless it's Channing Tatum proposing marriage and a lifetime supply of diet coke, chances are, I can wait to see it. And I won't have to pay a sitter, or pay $74 plus tax for the popcorn I'm just going to spill as I'm walking up to find a seat in the dark because I waited til the last possible minute to go in, in hopes of saving myself the embarrassment of going to a movie alone. I love the movies. I do. I just wish the summer had less must-see movies, and more must-see movies I could take  my kids to. TErminator cartoon nation perhaps. The kinder, gentler terminator. 

As you all know. I write with a constant sarcastic undertone, and really. I love summer. Even if my definition of summer falls short of what most consider a season worth celebrating. I will always be a snow girl, and chances are, summer will continue to be the one part of the year I am forced to invest in medical strength antiperspirant, and a beach towel large enough to cover the parts not worth of being seen in a swimsuit. My kids love it, and enjoy it, and really, with that. Who really cares what it does to me.

(Those of you here about the scrapbook page I may have created today. come back in a few for the posting) this is almost as good as the season premiere of Jon & Kate plus 8. Ruth scrapbooking surely requires at least a few rogue hits. Thanks for the faithful readership. And for what it's worth. You guys rock :)

this is what it sounds like. when moms cry

For serious. If I were being paid to blog, and reliant upon those paychecks to pay my bills, I'd likely be sitting in a dark room with zero ability to see due to the nature of my power being shut off, and, chances are, 8 sizes smaller because I could not afford food. Somehow I've just convinced myself being poor may very well be the answer to my fat problem... 

Who am I kidding. I'd find something to stuff my face with. Point being, I forget to blog. Occasionally I'll receive a rogue text from a reader, or close friend with the insinuation that the world hinges on me trudging over hear and updating my blog, but we all know that to be a falsehood. Besides,  you could just as easily find my minute by minute updates on twitter, tumblr, facebook or myspace. Because what's a girl without her vast social networks? Probably a skinnier, girl, with a cleaner house, and more time with which to do things because she's not tied up online all day... but that's neither here nor there. 

I however. I am here. I just put the finishing touches up on my last paper for my very first college class since 2001. You realize that means the last time my brain was forced to be graded upon it's contents was about the same time MTv stopped playing music videos. The similarities therein are just mind boggling, but the fact that so far I've managed to maintain an A in my first class, and not have to use bribery or the way I look in a sweater vest to garner it, is HUGE. I've undertaken the task of going back to school. (collective group applause. and.. stop.)

Thank you.

 I'm officially an undergrad in the Visual Communications field with an emphasis in graphic design. I am also--wait for it--still working on that pesky half-marathon, lose 89 pounds before Kirstie Ally thing. So far I'm down $159, and 53 tanks of gas, but my ability to run has INCREASED tri-fold. I used to get winded at the idea of walking into the cardio room. As of last week, I can run 8 miles in 90 minutes, and break only for urination, and the occasional check to make sure my lycra top hasn't risen above fat roll point break, revealing my not so good, goods, to all others in my immediate gazing area. 

For those of you taking note of my progress, a photo, of me. 

It appears I have a measuring cup in the restroom with me, yet another indicator of my lack of culinary skills. my children use them as outside tools. Rarely is one found in the kitchen. 

Speaking of the angels. 

They are almost done with school. I find it heartwarming, and also a little sad that I will be their primary care provider and teacher during the summer months. They are excelling at the current rate that children with my genetic coding could be expected to excel, and are quite possibly, going to surpass me by the time they reach 2nd grade. They've pretty much given up on being available for photography opportunities, which is good, because I've done very little photograph taking. It's all that previous "networking" we discussed. In reality, I've just been busy. But I did manage to take some of her heinous, (no that's not a misspelling, if you knew her you'd come to realize there is NOTHING royal about her, ) she is officially 4 years old, climbs, trees, plays games, enjoys long walks around the yard, and urinating in her diapers. Yes. I said diapers. 

but she's so stinking CUTE. I'm hoping they'll allow for breaks at recess for me to change her in between crossing the monkey bars, and chasing boys. I'm not giving up on her yet, but for reals, it's becoming redonkulous, and I cannot pretend that she's the majority here. 

In non child related accomplishments, which I have very few, I am still subscribing to studio calico, with the intentions of one day crawling back to the scrapbook world. I may or may not be welcomed back in, but I'm over caring about such things. I have bigger fish to fry. Maybe I'll stick to baking them though, I seem to do less damage to my diet that way.

It's been a LONG memorial day weekend. one that saw me in a car for 7 hours with sick children, ( apparently when he says, mom, I'm going to get sick, that's the indication it's time to bypass all cars and oncoming traffic, and head immediately to right side of the road. do not hold out your hand in cup shape and expect him to daintily spit his gum into it. you'd think after 7 years as a mother, I'd be used to this).

we made it home, and I'm certain after I light the seats on fire, and spray them with ammonia we'll be able to breath in the car again. I'm still attempting to take on all facets of the world at one time, and signed up for a comedic stand-up and writing class held locally, that promises to tap into your inner humor. I'm really thinking that writing the book I have my heart set on, would come easier with some professional expertise. That, and it'll be nice to hang out with people who don't wear diapers one night a week. My luck it'll be an all senior audience any my scenery won't be changing at all. 

Long story, still somewhat long. Life trudges on. I am meeting goals, slowly but surely. I have 2 months until my high school reunion, and I'd like to be the one girl with 4 kids who doesn't LOOK like the girl with 4 kids. We'll see. 

Thanks for continuing to read. Or pretending to read. I appreciate all of you. 

I'm off to write that hit song, alone in my principles. 

Until next time. Stay Classy. And remember. Only you can prevent forest fires. 

downward spiral. at least it's not a perm.

eVer notice that the one dude in the cul-de-sac who seems the most likely to help you with your groceries, is the one who's wife hates you the most? 

no thanks. I'll carry in my own butt wipe and string cheese.

I'm not sure if it's my newfound love of just being myself and not trying to please a world of women who will never actually be pleased  with me, or the realization that I'm 27 years old and no amount of judgmental behavior is going to change who I am. Britney said it best when she said, love me hate me say what you want about me. Then again when you sell out the MGM in the first 3 minutes it's a little easier to sing songs about "if you seek amy." 

Thanks for the vent Ruth. Have anything we actually care about to discuss? Why yes. I do. 

I've gone and done something that I dare say I never thought I could do. No. I haven't opened up an edible panty store. Soon though.

I've taken out my weight in student loans, and I've done the necessary paper-work to become an official college student. I thought long and hard about what to wear on my first day of school, and finally decided on some Abercrombie 2 sizes too small sweatpants, and a matching I brake for seals hoodie. AFterall, I will be attending online. NO need to go all  out.  I'll save that for virtual graduation.

I've wanted to go back to college since the first time I stuck my hand down the commode to retrieve something that shouldn't have been there in the first place. I however realized early on that it wasn't going to be an easy task, and back then, when computers were still something you had to have an entire room dedicated to for storage, it just didn't seem plausible. Lucky for me, the introduction of college to the web is about at prevalent as Hannah Montana footwear in an elementary school gym class. Therein making my quest for knowledge, and a higher social standing, that much easier to come by. NOt that being an unfit mother of 4 who's only release is the hourly updates to her facebook and twitter statuses isn't fulfilling. SOmetimes. YOu just need more.

(Speaking of twitter. I'm shamefully plugging my own. I figure with Britney up to 949,000, and Oprah well on her way to matching her followers with her worth on the New York Exchange, I  might as well get my share of the twitter pie. I'll be thrilled to reach 50.  http://twitter.com/mikeruth427)

So. For those of you who don't facebook, and haven't been subjected to the uploading of my current time wasting shenanigans. I'll take this time to update you as quickly as possible.

1. This is me. Now. The beginning of my weight-loss journey.

I'd key some touching theme music, ala Eye of the Tiger, but I'm sadly html retarded, and it might interfere with the rest of the post. 

2. I'm still cleaning the scrapbook room. I've submitted my photos to clean house. They responded with. HA. hahaha. REgretfully yours. Clean house. I'm not giving up. I never do. I may still be searching for red carpet with my pacemaker, but I will finish. 

3. My kids are still adorable. As if that was even a question. 

They find the time once a day to make me take back my utterances  of who are these kids and why are they calling me mom. 

4. I'm still trying to potty train the worlds most feral, adorable 4 year old, and having ZERO success. I'm pretty sure OJ's Lawyer has more chance of getting him out on good behavior than I do of getting this girl to PRe-K sans huggies. I need HELP. I've never had the issues I'm having with her in any of my other children. She's just, how do I put it. Different. Absolutely. Different. She's beautiful. She's funny. She's smart. (she's so my kid) but she has no basis in reality! I realize neither do I, but I'm 27. It's alot more socially acceptable. And I don't have to bring a pull-up for my play dates. She does.

I'm having her seen by the school again this week to see what they can suggest. She has been evaluated so many times, and it all boils down to being stubborn. And having no desire to grow up. I've been there. I'm still there. I can't really fault her for that.

As you can see, my life doesn't change much from day to die. I attempt to cook. I light things on fire. I try to get skinny, I eat my weight in Recess peanut butter cups. I try to accomplish more, I end up signing up for yet another absolute time wasting device and downloading it's comparable application from the app store. I'm pretty much going downhill. Which is fantastic when I'm on skis, not so great when my victory lies at the top. I'm not giving up mind you. That would be redonkulous. I'm just opting for more. Finding balance that doesn't include yoga positions. Finding happiness, that isn't based on another human, and finding the real me. Not the photoshopped version I'm so fond of putting on display.

Thanks to all those who support my blogging, or lack thereof. And those who keep my trudging forward in a time when backwards seems so much easier. 

I dedicate my successes to you. And should I not succeed. I'll need my virtual trophy back. Those things arn't cheap you know.

Like a cow to the slaughter...

This is me. The cow.  

The Slaughter. Would be the scale.  

One might think, but Ruth? Haven't you been dedicating yourself whole heartedly to working out, running like a Jonas Brother being chased by the mother of a 12 year old school girl who didn't get a ticket? 

Why yes readers. I have. So why, one might ask again, are you as down trodden as that same school gir's mother who never did catch that blasted Jonas brother?

BEcause, bloggerites. It's not working! It is in fact, having the very opposite effect. I cannot for any reason, other than God truly hating my very existence, think of a reason that I would be gaining weight? 

Stop right there. I know. Muscle weighs more than fat. But let me assure you. I've seen the Rock. I've Seen JOhn Cena. And what I've got going on down there. Doesn't even come close to resembling muscle. 

I'm fat. 

I'm still fat. so much so, that this conversation was able to transpire one evening during a harmless gathering of friends...

ME: You know what I think is so funny?

Group: Besides Kevin Federline still considering a career as an artist? What?

Me: I never get hit on by guys. EVER. I am not seeking it mind you, but I don't ever get hit on by them? I do however seem to attract females like MC Hammer attracted bad debts. I don't get it?

Group. (Mostly one guy in group): You know why that is don't you? 

Me: No, weird bald guy in group who I really wasn't talking to. Why?

Guy: (notice the lack of group reply) Well, you are kind of sexy, but you're also fat. Girls like personality. Guys like the appearance. Lose some weight. And you'll be set...

ME: (holding iPhone in such a way that should the voices in my head telling me to stab him, don't subside, I can thrust it at his jugular and run without so much as a missed call). Um? Ok. Thanks? I think?

yeah. I know. 

WHAT??? So that's it. I'm fat. I'm not as fat as I once was but apparently, I am still too round to elicit response from males. Were I actively seeking, I might be in trouble.

If I were not so intent on losing this weight before my 10 year reunion, ( I know what you're thinking, and yes, I am only 21. I graduated when I was 11. No worries), I would just say forget it. But I can't. I have to do this. It's that important to me. I will be the girl who looks better at her reunion than she did at her graduation. It helps a lot that the only photo still around of me on my graduation gives me the appearance of a girl who was unable to be in the suns presence during her 17 year stay on the earth, and apparently was also forbidden to use a hair brush? I'm thanking my lucky stars we were required to wear gowns, because there is no telling what ensemble I opted for in order to WOW my 356 other classmates, who could have cared less.

In other news, that isn't weight related, and yes, occasionally I have that. 

I've begun the daunting task of getting settled into my scrapbook room. I took the opportunity to utilize this time when my children are home all day, and the rain sees the need to grace us with it's presence, to put them to work. I've always known my kids were built for hard labor. They have their fathers muscles, and my dedication to excuse making as to why they can't use them. 

Bribery was however on my side. And we lugged 4 more totes into the room. I began the task, by making "piles" placing things of a similar nature, into groups with other things of that same similar nature. And I've come to realize. Alot of scrapbook stuff looks alike. Either that, or I'm just really bad at making piles...

So. THis is what we have. 

 Before. And After. HA. 

Yeah. I'm not funny. I have serious issues with organizing. I try. I mean well. But sadly after 3 days, and 100 trips up the stairs with buckets full of crap. I have this to show for it. Woo hoo. Buttons. I know. BAby steps. That's the same approach I take to all my life's goals I have no intention of ever meeting. I say baby steps, and people assume I'm making progress. Usually. I'm not.

I don't know. I mean well. ASide from the no scrap Zone being in dire straights. The rest of life seems to be, well following suit. I need a career. A serious one. It appears that useless house wife who spends her days filling out myspace and facebook surveys in an attempt to forget about the laundry that is piling up faster than evidence against OJ Simpson, is actually not a very lucrative venture. My college idea was fantastic, but they booed my idea of trading scrapbook paper for tuition, so until which time I find a concrete source to pay for my college. I'm back to square 1. Which would actually imply I had left square zero. 

I have not. So there you have it folks. My happiness was short lived. My pants are still just as tight. My Scrap HQ, or ground zero as I like to call it, is just as messy, and my desire to go on has all  but been squashed. I know. Woe is me. Go eat a twinkie Ruth. Quit lamenting

 

Perhaps I shall. In the mean time. Keep your eyes on the prize. Whatever yours may be. I'm shooting for a size 10. not a size 1( ). That's me. Falling out of my pants. Just in case you wondered. I'm still here. Probably on facebook. If you need me. Feel free to contact me. 

Bloggingly Yours. Ruthimus.