Ifs, ands, or butts.

Where do you go, my lovely? Where do you go?

Well. I go crazy. Mostly. But I did decide to take a brief hiatus from the "Whoa Is Me" drama I've been writing about lately, and get back to just being "me".

The me who scrapbooks. Oh yes. No need to reread that. I did it. I'm not ashamed. I made a page. (Singular). Even posted that bad boy at Two peas. Where I'm sure the majority of people are going, WHAT in the WORLD? She's still here?

Yeah. The leper of the scrapbook world, is slowly making a comeback.
It's nothing I'd put my name on in a public forum, but it gets the job done.

(Exactly what job remains to be seen)

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I also against my better judgment, decided to color my hair. Again.

See. I get these wild hairs no pun intended, where I think to myself, "Self", your life needs something. Something that doesn't involve getting arrested, getting pregnant, or doing something I can't speak freely about to a family member, and when I get that way, I have to fill that need. With something not laden with calories. So. I turn to my misguided roots. I found this photo of a very attractive girl, with a very sultry, yet easy to acquire hair cut. Or so one would THINK. Turns out, 4 hours, and some not so fun foiled moments later, I actually look like this: 

Really not the same thing, at all. But in the true to Ruth fashion, I decided to just go with it.

So here we be. I also, in awesome mother of the year nominee status, allowed my daughter to get some highlights as well.
I'm sure someone will have something to say about my 4 year old with highlights, but they were free, she wanted them, and she's been so awesome about having to home-school for Pre-K, since it's the price of a small car to send her to preschool here. I think it bodes well for the both of us. Who knows.

Things are just so not normal lately, it's like I'm in a red bull induced fog, that just won't clear. Which might work for some people, but I can't stand red bull, so it makes me a little leery. My dad thinks he's found love, AGAIN, small problem, she doesn't want kids. He has 10. Hmmm??

My husband is still gone, (in more ways than one), and I'm reverting to the only coping mechanism I have. Eating. Which would be great if my pants were too big, or my rear-end didn't double as a parking garage, but, sadly my pants barely fit, and there are enough parking spots on my backside for a sold out Hannah Montana concert. *Sigh* Perhaps, I'll do what I have to, to survive. That seems to be our motto around here. But the good news is, we almost have a super target, and I've not crashed this week. I realize it's only Tuesday, but I'll take it.

My kids keep me going, and not just because they run faster than me, they really do make the day worth living. I had someone tell me yesterday that if they could guarantee they'd have kids like mine, they'd take that plunge, and while some days are much better than others, I wouldn't trade one second for anything.

That's the good thing about kids. They love you, no matter what. No matter how fat, how thin, how ugly, how scatter-brained. They don't care, all they require is everything I can give them, food, love, and the occasional trip to Chuck E cheeses.
And I mean really, for what I get in return, it's completely worth it. 100%.

No ifs ands or buts about it.  (well maybe some butts, but it's a small price to pay when you consider the rewards.) A very small price indeed.

Comments

[kristina]

Love this post, Ruth. :) Been thinking of you and hoping things are going better. I'll continue to think good thoughts. I love your humor through it all though. Kids DO make it all worth it no matter what, don't they? I could have the worst day and then my daughter comes up to me and says, "You're my buddy" and everything is made right again. I love that. Love the scrapbook page (DO MORE) and love the hair, too. That last photo is so sweet, too. Hugs to you my friend. Here's hoping that things get better and better each day. :)

[tania]

you're too cute miss ruth! i love your sense of humor and i'm totally diggin that layout. BEAUTIFUL my friend!

[tara pakosta]

your hair looks CUTE!
chin up girlie!
i lOVE your layout!
take care of YOU, i know that must be hard right now!
hugs!
tara

[micayla]

Forgive me Ruth, I have been reading but leaving no comments of late! Bad me, I blame the morning well 24/7 sickness!
Just wanted to say the colour and cut are cute and the layout is delish!
Take care xx

[tracyg]

You don't scrap, and then manage to create such and amazing layout. you truly are a giften girl.....with kick butt hair! Have a great day! :)

[Denise Morrison]

Love the hair..on both of you! The scrapbook page is awesome and please do more because I get so happy and wonder how you even think of the stuff you do.

[anna]

Very well put. And I like your daughter's highlights, tell her I say that they are bee-ooutiful!

[Elizabeth]

I love the page and I'm not kissin' butt, it's a piece of art! Very creative! I hope it felt great to do it!

And...
Since when does it matter what others think? I thought all that mattered was God and what He thought!

I say this because girl you do what you do because you do it and don't look back!!!

p.s. the highlights rock!

[kelly]

Happy Valentine's Day, Lovely. Thinking of you :) (and fabu page btw :))

[Anabelle]

Lovin' the highlights! (on both of you) And your layout is gorgeous. Only you could take a hiatus and come back in full force like this! Keep hugging those kids...they'll get you through all of this. ;)

[Sue Sume]

Good to see you bloggin' again. Take care of yourself.

[Bernie]

Hi R...another wonderful chapter! Love your new do...and I love your little one's foils...very cute! bx

[Jennifer]

oh how you make me laugh girl! i love the hair! and I LOVE the page! I may have to lift that one!

[Susannah]

YOU ROCK! hair, layout the whole nine yards! awesome work

[lindsay]

you crack me up! love that scrapbook page. i so wish i had your mad scrapping skills! hope you and the family have a great weekend!

[Molly]

Ruth, I wish I could be there to help you out. Having a dad who, also, a mere 6 weeks after my mom passed away, swore he found a new love, a love, that hates children, and who is still with (and is Satan, oh yes, this is Satan), it makes it, well, harder. They will give you excuses, (the dads), saying well, I don't have anyone, etc...it's hard. Especially if you were close to your mom. And looked up to her. And all you want is her, not this THING, not so soon.
So, seriously, anytime, I am here.

[Kelly Noel]

loving your new do! looks great! and love to see you scrapping!

hang in there!

[hillary heidelberg]

hey cutie. love the hair. and your daughters. hugs.

[Shawna]

I found your blog through a comment you left me..just wanted to thank you. I have no idea why youre the leper of scrapbooking..i stay away from all the drama..but hope you keep making more fabulous pages

[Dina]

You are beautiful. I miss you. :) Hugs.

[steph]

I love the scrap book fotos. Who cares if there are only one foto in each one of the pages. It looks great.